Hail to Kid N Play

My manic brain. It is a blessing and a curse. It allows me to be creative and productive and absolutely marvelous. It also prevents me from sleeping correctly, sometimes unable to finish a thought and my patience level is nil. If you are speaking and I cut you off it is not because I am uninterested, it simply means that my brain is working way faster than you or I could ever speak and if I don't say it, whatever it is, it will be gone. Dust. Immediate gratification is a must. Because of my racing mind, I have a lot of really good ideas that must come to fruition. This is how most of my home projects come to life. My latest project is to begin painting the porch and railing. I malled over color choices for over a half hour yesterday, purchased the paint and needed to wait until today for Beau to use the power washer on it all. It is raining. This means that my plan will be on delay until the weather clears. Luckily, I bought the makings for a really nice fall wreath. I will be channeling my creative energies into that later today.

Beau sold our boat the other day and made the transaction for the bigger boat this morning. He just has to go pick it up from the slip it currently resides in and he is waiting for the rain to subside. So needless to say, 15 minutes after he sold his boat he began being a nice guy again. Even though he denies it, I know he was punishing me because he wanted the new boat "right now" and I wouldn't budge on the "the old one must go before you drag another one into my driveway". I have seen the new monster and it is much bigger than Lucy. It can hold up to twelve people so that means when we all go camping we don't have to take rides in shifts. Our family and Mandi's family will fit comfortably and this was the selling point for me. While I love my husband and kids everything is usually much more fun with Mandi. She is my MadTV! It has a hidden compartment underneath that we can put the kids in to be shaded from the sun. This summer is nearly over but there are many more summers to come. At least until he decides to sell this one off. Did I mention he loves Craigslist. He scans it as I do Facebook.

Oddly, Beau asked if I wanted to go out last night. Usually, it is me with the hankering for some semblance of a night life. We had great fun! I did not sing the karaoke, thankfully. But I did manage to find another Dancing Drunkle. I proceed to the dance floor and get a few feet away from the Drunkle and he pesters me for the rest of the night. Geez Louise! OK, I may have given off the wrong signals beings at some point I hiked my leg on him. I am sure that somewhere in the 90's this was an actual dance move, however, you just don't see it these days. God love Kid N Play! How I get myself into those situations is beyond me. OK, I know how I get myself into those situations. Funky Cold Medina! That's all I'm saying.

I ran into someone from my past. A Coordinator from a treatment facility where I was a patient. Lovely. Not awkward at all! I can't even remember how the topic came up. His girlfriend was very nice though and explained her ex-husband also suffers from BPD but unlike me he refuses to take his medication properly. It is hard for me to understand those people. Without medication, it is completely uncomfortable. Physically, mentally, emotionally. Being totally fantastic is exhausting and the human body was not designed for non-stop go, go, go. Not to mention, what goes up must come down. I have not had a major depressive episode for over a year now. With the life circumstances and challenges that we have faced as a family in the past year I can only attribute this to medication. So, if you have Bipolar or think you may have the greatest piece of advice I will ever give is once you find the right medication for you don't stop taking it!